Had Enough

Okay friends, another Lifehouse song :). Seriously, these guys write lyrics and melodies straight to my heart.

After being on an emotional yo yo for months...I've hit a turning point. I've had enough. I know that I'm worth more than what I've been getting lately. I'm ready for something amazing.

"Had Enough" by Lifehouse

Loneliness pacing up and down these hallways
Second guessing every thought
Mystified, just spinning around in circles
Drowning in the silent screaming with nothing left to say

Every time I reach for you
There's no one there to hold on to
Nothing left for me to miss
I'm letting go, letting go of this

Lost my mind thinking it through
The light inside has left me too
Now I know what empty is
I've had enough, had enough of this

I believe that love should be a reason
To give and get back in return
(To give and get back in return)
I wanna breathe in a new beginning
With someone who will wrap her arms around what's left of me

Every time I reach for you
There's no one there to hold onto
Nothing left for me to miss
I'm letting go, letting go of this

Lost my mind thinking it through
The light inside has left me too
Now I know what empty is
I've had enough, had enough of this

I'm tired of barely holding on
To something that's already gone
I'm tired of being one who's in this all alone

Every time I reach for you
There's no one there to hold onto
Nothing left for me to miss
I'm letting go, letting go of this

Lost my mind thinking it through
The light inside has left me too
Now I know what empty is
I've had enough, had enough of this

Need You Now...

So I've heard this song in the background of life lately...but never have even paid much attention to it. This past week I've removed the iPod from my car so that I am forced to listen to my radio, taking in some new music...and today for the first time experienced this song and it's so true lyrics...

Need You Now
by Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.


I'm so pathetic I can't even wait until a quarter after one...I want to call you now...but I'm pretty sure that I don't ever cross your mind...

Halfway Gone...

So here we are, June of 2010. Hard to believe isn't it? I remember when I was a kid and the school year just never went fast enough to bring us to summer, but then summer flew by in a flash. The adults in my life would always say things like "Time is flying by so fast" and in the midst of a dragging year I had no idea what they meant! Well, here I am...an adult myself and I can fully see their perspective! It's almost like how our summers used to be - only instead of the days being filled with outside play, vacations and sleepovers...we're consumed with our 9-5's, responsibilities, and just sleeping!!

I'm at a loss of words when I realize that 2010 is nearly halfway gone. I can remember back to this past New Year's Eve, celebrating with some friends up at my folk's place near Yosemite...my friend B and I declared that 2010 was going to be a much better year, because, let's be honest...2009 dealt us some hard blows. We had so much hope in this year, and here I stand, completely devastated by 2010 - and it's only halfway done.

In early March, B and I would say to each other in our hopeful tones "Things have to get better, because they can't get any worse!" And then we'd be blindsided by something worse. This repetition of hoping for the best and getting knocked down yet again has continued on...to a point where now, in June, we've decided we must stop tempting the Universe by saying things can't get any worse - because then of course they will!

I'm writing this blog, not just for me, but for B as well. Each day, we try to turn things around. We cry out to God seeking His peace and redemption...and to be perfectly honest - there has been a few days in which Joy comes. However, they are far outweighed by the days in which the worst consumes.

I'm scared to even hope, let alone ask, for the second half of 2010 to be turned around...but we need it.

Photo Booth Fun!

Here's some fun photos from the booth at Melani and Steve's wedding! So much fun! Do you think one of the family ones is usable for a 2010 Christmas Card? ;).